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Originally posted by mareaire:
it seems like there are varying interpretations of soul mate and twin flames out there.
Yes there are (this is a long explanation).
I met a soul mate, I believe. And I remember a past life experience with this person.
We met because I had posted some concert tickets up on craigslist and he was the first to message me. When I gave him my number and he called, I remember hearing his voice on he phone and thinking he sounded annoying (lol) but when I met him, I felt like my heart stopped for a second.
I had called my cousin to have her on the phone the whole time (because there was a stranger coming by from craigslist, of course!) and when he pulled up and got out of the car I said, "Oh my gawd! The hottest guy I have ever seen is walking up to my door and I didn't even bother to do my hair or take a shower!"
Anyway, we chatted intently outside on my doorstep as it lightly sprinkled (I will never forget this day...it was 11/1/2010). I was selling two tickets so he invited me to go with him. I declined and then kicked myself for the rest of the day.
So I e-mailed him casually the next day to ask "How was the show? I hope you liked it..." and a very odd and sexually awkward (but sweet) friendship formed. As an example, we would sleep in the same bed and give each other back massages but not be sexual. We never "dated" either as he was awkward.
The last time I saw him in an intimate way was Thanksgiving night 2011. I invited him to Thanksgiving at my house and when he was leaving, he had issues with his brake lights. So again, we were standing in the rain trying to get it situated. I was always the one to hold the flashlight. As he was about to drive away, he rolled down the window and called my name. Since it was raining hard at this point, I poked my head into the window which made us very close. He kissed me and drove away.
I ran into him once after that around the new year 2012/2013. I was already with my fiancé at the time and he was there with a girl but it was fine. We hugged and sat with our arms tightly squeezed around each other while showing each other pictures of what we had been doing in life over that past year of silence. It was a sweet moment.
My last contact with him was July 25, 2013 (his birthday). I sent him a card but he never replied. he told a mutual friend he missed me and thought it was very sweet, but he never thanked me directly.
I really wanted to get him another card this year but I wondered why. What is this attachment? We don't really talk or hang out anymore. ???
But I did fall in love with him and I do love him as a human being. It just wasn't right for us to be together. That feeling is so hard to explain.
I believe we saved each other's lives though. When we met, we were both going through very difficult times (as a hint, it was right at the tail end of my Saturn return). I never did the astrology on him but maybe I should have to help figure out why we needed each other.
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Ok, so during all of that (above), I realized my lovely soul mate was not a romantic interest, so I moved on in my dating life. I had decent luck on craiglist finding such a sweet friend that I went there looking through the personals. No one was really standing out to me but this one ad I would come back to week after week (he kept reposting). He talked about being a musician and I had told myself, "stay away" but I couldn't.
I wrote him but he didn't respond for two weeks. Then, we texted and chatted online for a little more than a month before we decided to meet. Our first date was set for 12/26/2010 but I lived 29 miles from him so he decided on Christmas night that he would drive out to make sure he wouldn't get lost.
When I saw him, I met someone who I absolutely believed was a soul mate but then I learned what a twin flame is.
When he got to the parking lot where I live that Christmas night in 2010, I ran down the steps as he jumped from his car and I literally jumped in his arms to greet him. It was that picture perfect. And, the first 2 weeks was intense like that. AMAZING. And then he pulled away and said he needed time to process everything. He said, "trust me" and I did. Stupidly.
Anyway, I will spare everyone the heart wrenching nastiness but I will say this. Relationships with twin flames aren't always easy or positive and ours surely wasn't!! He shredded my heart & it was the worst heartbreak I've ever experienced because I loved him, but he didn't love me back. The only thing to keep me sane today is to believe the relationship was there to teach me to release some old patterns. I can appreciate that. But he left me with a broken heart that truthfully hasn't healed (and I am happily married now).
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In my next message, I will write about how my "earth partner" came to be. However, I have work to do that has a tight deadline, so it may not be right away.
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